The19-20 attitude

life at 19-20 is all mixed up ,just the way our IPL 20-20s are.More cool than ever before,not caring about keeping up with toppers,seeing life the way i feel it should be seen.sometimes it sounds like am way far away from the serious image people taught i had.stopped taking the so called advice that teachers give in the manner of scoldings.instead started giving silly answers to their questions in my mind and then as always end up laughing out of control.
barefacedly admitting that i have had many a crush and just one love ,happily one sided is now kind of a regime.Giving hypocritical guidance to friends when they have heart breaks though mostly dealing with teenage love has become a part of my day to day activities and this is seen by many outsiders of my college life as a gifted quality to become a HR.
crazy burgers!!
speaking of which,reminds me my new found fondness for vivek and vadivel comedies.most of the interesting or funny conversations i have, will never be devoid of their insipid dialogues which somehow seems inspiring and funny to many.Even if u are a Shakespeare you are supposed to speak the butler english ,if u dont you are tagged PETER.And so was i!before u ponder over what i just said,let me clearly confirm that i am no where related to the former.
I still dont posses the swagger of a college kid ,the moment i start worrying about results and studies or i have a book in my hand ,even if i were just holding it ,peers start giving a stare that makes one feel that she is a UFO, who descended from pluto.
To top all this is my worrying diet,which is so fickle that i always end up eating at the delicious veg row at college ,adding anxiety the calorie way.three continues days of diet row causes the transformation of becoming the attractive girl of future to a college kid with the spirit that's unheeding to grab some guys gaze. Then one fine day results come and again i am the NERD of nerds for just a week.After which the spring loosens up to unleash its laziness and vigor to be called "hey ur Cool!"

superstition unplugged!!

how caring can a mom get?? well in my case its too much.i better be careful and make it clear that am not complaining ,but just complimenting . praise lord ,praise moms!!
hailing from a highly cultural society ,we Indians believe in everything.there is no need for the scientists to find out anti-matter to prove the fact that there exists both angels and demons in this world,as we Indians knew it long back even before formulating a hypothesis for the same.
"so what? what has it to do with ur mom ?" would be the question u might be asking.well ,what i am trying to complain is the superstitious nature ,which our ancestors have imbibed in her.its a very common case all over India.
it would really sound ludicrous.u sneeze or suffer from sudden dry cough or even have hiccups ,they will all blame it on our pitiable grandparents in the heaven for blessing and thinking about us.but we alone will know that it wasn't our grandpa or granny ,but a stealthy drench when it was rainy.leave alone that,
call it karma? crows are always in the good books of superstition for whatever unintended act they do.even if it shouts like an obnoxious mad one,people get excited that they will have guests ,instead of shooing it away for disturbing their kids (who are studying sincerely!) ;)
but the most worrisome and enviable part would be when they make umpteen number of sumptuous dishes to serve the crows, when humans get served only hastily strewn dishes even on their birthdays.i know that this is very common,and many out there are showering their empathy in this regard.
but not many would have endured what i did.one day i accidentally disclosed to my mom that i had a nightmare obviously while i was sleeping.having discussed with all the chief CBI officers(grannies from my whole neighborhood),ultimately the case was closed by zeroing down upon the main terror suspect- "the evil spirit". from then on getting up every morning has become a nightmare for me,to find out broomsticks and slippers right besides the bed.The very first time i witnessed this,i really thought that i had developed a sleep-walking habit and thus ended up sleeping in the store room.little did i know that it was only the usual bedroom.not just my bedroom,even my forehead was adorned with vermilion and holy-ash makeup.happy that it atleast stopped with that!
so closing message to Gen-next from a sleepless citizen-
shun the superstition and get some life!!

my intentions are different

i try to go by like i never knew u
am awake but ma worlds half asleep
seems as if u have heard this somewhere right??well may be if u were a back street boys fan ,u surely would have guessed that its from their song INCOMPLETE.
huh...scrupling feelings made me proclaim this to my crazy Christ mom ,when she asked me to write a poem on friendship.lol..poem??me??.just because i blabber some peter shit,it doesn't mean that i can write poems!
ok let me stop deviating as its my mind way of doing things. this excerpt mentioned above some how speaks the truth abt my college life.i keep murmuring this one whenever i see my lecturer (cha..naughty kid! i know what ur thinking).u c i mean it in a different way.
"i try to go by like i never know u"
now i mean that even if i know him/her ,i don't waana wish them and get recognized(which would jeopardize my hard earned title "THE SILENT MISCHIEF MAKER")nah..not even tat famous pleasing smile of mine would be spent!!
all i give them is a blank expression which makes them go nervous at times.

n through this "am awake but ma worlds half asleep" i assert that though i pretend to be wide awake n attentive ,actually speaking my worlds asleep .not just HALF asleep but its TOTALLY asleep.i do this pretending act to make them feel satisfied that at least one soul is listening to them.
duh..dont blame me for my benevolent servicing attitude plz..
bow u! gracias señoras y señores!! :)

MY CLASS

for those who have been following my crazy blog posts,here's yet another blog relating to my life at college,with a promising note that i wont bore u with some mokkais. heres a post about my very own class!!!
A class of ICE-Instrumentation and Control Engineer's or otherwise abbreviated as Intelligent and Challenging Enthusiasts (lol..;)),we are 67 in number.not more not less.our class is a plethora of different personalities.u can find anybody and everybody in there, video jockey(Aisu) ,film actor(Rakesh),singers(Mariam Sruthi,Revathi),professional bathroom singers(Me,n the whole of the first two benches ) ,international athletes(bino,pavi,prajun,valli appan,muthu anna,kabadi rama,twin brothers..etc..),future politicians(vijay raja,vijay chandra...lol) ,comedians(zoo,rads),professional comperes(dinesh aka. pulimoota,hari aka.butterfly),the gossip tabloid editors(among girls-varshini,vijetha,nithasha,shana,aarthi,kirthika. among boys-karthik,n the last benchers),barathanatyam dancer(abu),the silent yet sound intelligent people(poornima,sharada),perfectionists(me),the all time commentators (vignesh n group),percussionist(narasimhan),trumpet player(abichandra),the so called ICE TERROR (Terrible-Error)-deepika n
THE ICE DONS(ajorin,srinivasan,riaz,inamel,venkatesh,prajun...etc)u can guess them by their appearance!!
n many other VIPs left to talk about(can't type,lazy to just have my fingers sweat).
its been nearly 6 to 7 months and now i get to write about them all, as i've studied them (50 %)by my silent observations.
any time u drop into our class(other than maths n civil periods) there will be no commotion at all..cos we ll b sleeping ,recharging our brain cells!!
the most funniest class u could ever attend would be our maths class(shhhhhh..)
lol...i will get to write a separate post about that later.
we are a bunch of good ppl, we never ever irritate any lecturer.
every body will be amazed the way we are (;))and we always maintain a rapport with the neighboring department ppl by lending them english text books n lab coats!!!
the story about The Angels will be continued ..........

unforgettable part1

It was a good warm cloudy evening,i sat by a cup of tea.i was not my usual self,it was evident from the fact that i was reluctant to engage my mind in drinking it!!!
so what was that thought which was running like a flood in the veins of my brain??..
well it was nothing but the chain of events that happened to me that day!!
i admit it to u-i suffer from a chronic problem of thinking about what others would've thought about me. i know it doesn't help but i cant help but keep surmising about what others might have thought about me.
bad bloody embarrassing things happen to this visibly extrovert but totally introvert teen!
in spite of sharing her embarrassing moments with all of them she knew..that pain still refused to leave her heart..thus she decided to puke it into her blog..
"It was one fine morning n i ended up getting lil late than usual at 6.25 am (IST) because i had to do some last minute late night study for a engg.chemistry exam.
it took some 15 min to get ready to leave to the college..n i rushed out from my house to the bus stop..PAUSE..before that my mom was really pestering me to have some coffee,lest i would faint for having an empty stomach n overworked brain ;)
the coffee was annoyingly very hot ,so i refused to drink.but i donno y but that day i really couldnt figure out what went wrong wid my mom..that she came up with an idea of packaging that steaming coffee in a tupperwear pet bottle..having stunned by her affection ,i too carried it in my backpack ..RETURNing to the bus stop scene..the bus had already started leaving n i as usual brought it to a halt n was gettin into it and i suddenly heard a pop..perplexed about where the sound was from..to my dismay i found that it was from the tupperwear which my mom had sent.
the eager steam from that lava hot coffee caused all the disaster by helping the tupperwear lid to skyrocket a projectile distance all the way out of my bus.that was not just the bloody thing that happened.this was followed by showering some drops of coffee on my fellow bus mates who happened to never notice it though(thick skinned i guess ;))having already come late to the bus ,i din want to stop the driver n enjoy the privilege of searching for the cap.thus was forced to drink the coffee in front of some 50 odd ppl.my luck(:0) the bus was full n i was forced to sit on the foot-board (center stage!!)n all those around were wondering what i was drinking inspite of having their exams to study for.had a hellova time then.but atleast the exam that day turned out lucky" phew....crazy tales n their surprise gales
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........they r killing me!!!!

The one day that i enjoyed at col.......

A day at college was simply superb with all periods free n a rainy climate outside.all we had to do was to roam about outside(perhaps just inside the campus!).only hindrance was the water stagnating here n there at the sides,but it was clean enough to feel like drenching ur feet in it.but was watchful about those slimy small snakes!.well yes my college is a house for wild squirrels,large number of sparrows,garden rats,crows(how can i miss them?),many different wild birds etc...n homo sapiens ,of course.
well then i was roaming about with a set of friends ,talking all the way we walked.
it was really fun walking simply around the college with some sneak-peaks here n there,
which are quite rare ;).trespassed into the lady's gym for hostilities n tried out some equipments with the desire to become karnum malleshwari within few minutes ,so that we could lift n throw our skinny block incharges..(lol).then got out of the gym because it started getting sultry inside(bloody ppl! they turned off the AC).then heard that there were some auditions going on in the auditorium n ppl really longed to hear me singing. so lent my voice, but fortunately was asked to stop abruptly because the mech guy who was the selector out there couldn't resist my beautiful bombay jayashree like husky voice(ok...now stop recalling how my voice is!). Then i continued my tour around the college n went back into my class to witness few strange things (well yes the air was filled with flirtings here n there ;) ! ).Then went to see the hostel n its inmates.A girl who resided there, was my guide.
Got introduced to many friends out there n had some hot chat with them!
Then my tour ended as the watch showed 2.45 pm ,had to run to catch a seat in the bus(that's another tedious affair!). hey did i miss the food that i had that day? well its was a saturday n staurdays menu
1.all types of rice-sambar rice,tomato rice,ghee rice,coconut rice,curd rice,
n occasionally malai kofta is served.
2.ice cream (flavor varies each saturday).
what can i say,its the only thing that other college students can envy about!

fear!

"There is nothing to fear except the persistent refusal to find out the truth, the persistent refusal to analyze the causes of happenings."
said Dorothy Thompson, the "First Lady of American Journalism".
Fear is an emotional response to threat , danger n disgusting things!
There may be many phobias which are frightening in numbers but no one can claim to have them all.
as far as i am concerned,fear has to be in ones system but not too overwhelmingly.Neither can a person with fear of everything nor can a person with no fear at all be called normal!
I am frightened about many silly things like cockroach, lizard(i have had nasty experiences with it)and few serious things like my exams,my future and many other things like- whether or not will i reach my goal ! but i don't allow all these to barge in my mind when it comes to the present.(who cares about those exams, if its not going to be held tomorrow !)
fear cripples one faster than any other implement of war!!!!
a very common fear among all of us is fear of ghosts,darkness and related things...
i used to get goose bumps when i thought about it.but only until i heard about how Sri RamakrishnaParamahamsa
used to enjoy darkness.he used to consider darkness as goddess Kali and would find it extremely peaceful to meditate in darkness it seems!
Many people think of security instead of opportunity n a humor is that they seem to be more afraid of life than death.
so what i mean to say at the end of all this is -nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.
i am not saying that one should never have fear. u can have it but u should never get frightened about it!
heheheha!!!!! have a scary night!